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Everybody has an inner child.

It’s actually responsible for a lot of good traits, like playfulness and curiosity. If u had some really negative experiences in childhood, though, your wounded inner child might bring that pain into your adulthood. Kids blame themselves when they get invalidated, neglected, verbally or physically abused, abandoned or rejected. And if that’s never addressed, it shows up later. That’s the reason a lot of us have fear of abandonment or fear of commitment… anger issues or trouble enforcing our boundaries… overreaction to small issues or complete avoidance of any conflict. Sooo when u get into therapy & realize your inner child been doing the most, your therapist might recommend something called INNER CHILD WORK. And y’all… it’s hard. U basically gotta acknowledge the bad things that happened to u & understand how your internalized response to it might be causing issues right now. It’s painful, embarrassing, frustrating… it ain’t for the weak. But it makes u more powerful. Helps u have more control of your emotions. None of us wanna admit there might be an immature part of us making decisions in our adult life. Or even worse, that your inner kid might be showing up in your romantic relationship. Cringey af. 🤮Depending on your wounds, relationships might even bring up a lot of trauma triggers. It does for me. So whenever I feel like my inner child is acting out, I remind myself that my inner child MY responsibility. Others can assist me in caring for it, but it’s MY job meets it’s needs. It’s nobody’s job to raise my child but me. U know why? Because people are in my life for the woman, not the child. And that’s ok. Cuz nobody can ever love little me better than me. 💜

Everybody has
an inner child.

It’s actually responsible for a lot of good traits, like playfulness and curiosity. If u had some really negative experiences in childhood, though, your wounded inner child might bring that pain into your adulthood. Kids blame themselves when they get invalidated, neglected, verbally or physically abused, abandoned or rejected. And if that’s never addressed, it shows up later. That’s the reason a lot of us have fear of abandonment or fear of commitment… anger issues or trouble enforcing our boundaries… overreaction to small issues or complete avoidance of any conflict. Sooo when u get into therapy & realize your inner child been doing the most, your therapist might recommend something called INNER CHILD WORK. And y’all… it’s hard.

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U basically gotta acknowledge the bad things that happened to u & understand how your internalized response to it might be causing issues right now. It’s painful, embarrassing, frustrating… it ain’t for the weak. But it makes u more powerful. Helps u have more control of your emotions. None of us wanna admit there might be an immature part of us making decisions in our adult life. Or even worse, that your inner kid might be showing up in your romantic relationship. Cringey af. 🤮Depending on your wounds, relationships might even bring up a lot of trauma triggers. It does for me. So whenever I feel like my inner child is acting out, I remind myself that my inner child MY responsibility. Others can assist me in caring for it, but it’s MY job meets it’s needs. It’s nobody’s job to raise my child but me. U know why? Because people are in my life for the woman, not the child. And that’s ok. Cuz nobody can ever love little me better than me. 💜

There are some things in life that I am never gonna understand. One of them is why people are SO careless about how they impact the mental health of others. When I first started trying to have a life again during my suicide recovery, I thought that if I was brave and just told people upfront “these are my mental mental health issues and this is what I need to be ok,” then they would respect it. It was a big shock to learn that’s just not true.

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See, I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT that the reason so many folks had treated me terribly during my mental breakdown was because I’d hid the situation for so long, so they didn’t understand what was going on. I blamed myself for keeping it a secret. Once I went through recovery and finally got the courage to talk about it, I really thought people would be better. I wish so bad that I could tell y’all that finding the courage to speak up would automatically mean people will be better. But the truth is, most won’t. Many people are selfish. Many people are navigating their own issues. Many people are living life on autopilot and they can’t even be authentic with themselves, so how could they ever be sensitive for u? This is something I’ve witnessed my entire life. As a kid I got so used to being unheard and misunderstood that I thought if I grew up and became an amazing artist, I could SHOW people my feelings and I’d never be misunderstood again. That didn’t work. To this day I don’t know what it feels like to simultaneously be vulnerable and safe. I’m still in therapy about it. So it’s kinda like… if this is how it’s gonna be, then why speak up at all? Why be honest about your mental health shit at all? Why even try? Well… U don’t do it for nobody else. U do it for YOU. U do it for your humanity. U do it cuz it don’t matter who don’t give a fuck about what u need. YOU do. U do it because it’s right. U do it because u wanna be part of the solution, not part of the problem. U do it so the people who virtue signal and posture about mental health aren’t the ones leading the conversation. U do it because u deserve to have someone care about your feelings… Even when it seems like the only one who cares is u. 💜